Rockhauler Posted April 19 Author Share Posted April 19 Your buddy did the snow angel, full on screaming fire chicken impersonation on the hood of his car? 🤪 No it was my truck hood he was flopping around on. Think he thought I was going to loose it on him instead I was rolling around laughing my heart out. I learned a long time ago life is much better if you don't sweat the small stuff. Paul Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ArdWrknTrk Posted April 19 Share Posted April 19 No it was my truck hood he was flopping around on. Think he thought I was going to loose it on him instead I was rolling around laughing my heart out. I learned a long time ago life is much better if you don't sweat the small stuff. Paul Absolutely! Damage been done. It's too late to be upset about it. I get that, people cowering, or afraid. I realize I'm FAR from the person I appear to be. (a gruff old white dude with great diction and a vocabulary like a sailor! 😂) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Rockhauler Posted April 19 Author Share Posted April 19 Absolutely! Damage been done. It's too late to be upset about it. I get that, people cowering, or afraid. I realize I'm FAR from the person I appear to be. (a gruff old white dude with great diction and a vocabulary like a sailor! 😂) exactly Not to worry my skin has gotten pretty thick over the years. Autism runs in my family too though it was never talked about nor was I ever diagnosed for having it. But looking back over my life I see the areas I struggled and understand why now. I do struggle getting words out of my head and writing things down is even tougher. Paul Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ArdWrknTrk Posted April 19 Share Posted April 19 exactly Not to worry my skin has gotten pretty thick over the years. Autism runs in my family too though it was never talked about nor was I ever diagnosed for having it. But looking back over my life I see the areas I struggled and understand why now. I do struggle getting words out of my head and writing things down is even tougher. Paul You're doing a great job here, Paul! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Rockhauler Posted April 19 Author Share Posted April 19 You're doing a great job here, Paul! thanks, but tell that to my spell checker Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ArdWrknTrk Posted April 19 Share Posted April 19 thanks, but tell that to my spell checker I can't stand autocorrect. I have a VERY good vocabulary (as a five year old kid I used to read the thesaurus and dictionary for fun!) But often the algorithm decides to put words in my mouth or drop something at random, in the middle of a reply. 😡 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Rockhauler Posted April 22 Author Share Posted April 22 I can't stand autocorrect. I have a VERY good vocabulary (as a five year old kid I used to read the thesaurus and dictionary for fun!) But often the algorithm decides to put words in my mouth or drop something at random, in the middle of a reply. 😡 I leave auto correct off but rely on spell check for help though I often stump the spell checker. Me it was numbers and shapes that I was good with. I'm sure my life would of been much smoother if I had understood Autism at a earlier age. Paul Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ArdWrknTrk Posted April 22 Share Posted April 22 I leave auto correct off but rely on spell check for help though I often stump the spell checker. Me it was numbers and shapes that I was good with. I'm sure my life would of been much smoother if I had understood Autism at a earlier age. Paul This is one of those moments when people can connect on another level. I meet people every day with AS (disorder! 😂) and others with my co-morbid conditions like cPTSD and the rest... Just the other day I accidentally sent an Afghan vet to his Bad Place. I was not scared, but I was horrified that I had touched his reset button. I would never EVER want to subject someone to my demons, but I have an idea of his. I'd rather view it as family than strangers Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Rockhauler Posted April 23 Author Share Posted April 23 This is one of those moments when people can connect on another level. I meet people every day with AS (disorder! 😂) and others with my co-morbid conditions like cPTSD and the rest... Just the other day I accidentally sent an Afghan vet to his Bad Place. I was not scared, but I was horrified that I had touched his reset button. I would never EVER want to subject someone to my demons, but I have an idea of his. I'd rather view it as family than strangers Oh no, that poor vet, I often wonder how all the lads coped after WW1 and WW2 ended. I've just started to get a grasp of the hell that Autism / cPTSD is. Its so deep and varied from one person to the next and also how its intertwined with ones childhood and life experiences. All I can say is wow, still trying to get my head around it all. Think its time I dug out my camera....at least when alone in the bush taking pictures of wildlife my mind truly is at peace. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ArdWrknTrk Posted April 23 Share Posted April 23 Oh no, that poor vet, I often wonder how all the lads coped after WW1 and WW2 ended. I've just started to get a grasp of the hell that Autism / cPTSD is. Its so deep and varied from one person to the next and also how its intertwined with ones childhood and life experiences. All I can say is wow, still trying to get my head around it all. Think its time I dug out my camera....at least when alone in the bush taking pictures of wildlife my mind truly is at peace. PTSD can be "complex" for a reason. It was called 'shell shocked' back then. The maladaptive survival behaviors our mind adopts can present in many ways. I'm getting better with rage, but I can also dissociate and go catatonic. There's a reason autism is a "Spectrum" In elementary school I used to beat my head on the desk so hard it would spatter blood. But, unlike many non-verbal autists I'm incredibly loquacious. That coupled with the fact I used to read the encyclopedia and thesaurus for fun makes me sound "preachy" at times, but really I'm just incredibly enthusiastic about sharing all the esoteric minutiae in my head. The DSM IV threw all of us into the pool together, instead of differentiating Asperger's Syndrome and other forms of autism. I'm basically Rainman with a penchant for cultures & language, chemistry and material science, rocketry & orbital dynamics, OSINT & cryptography (anything that's a puzzle or pattern recognition) 3D spatial relations (my brain lives CAD) and I can instantly grasp an analog schematic. I'm also really good with colour and typefaces because as a kid I used to work in a commercial art store. When Panatone and Letraset were a thing before computers made stat cameras obsolete. I had walls of numbers memorized! I also love my 87 460 pickup. No computers, airbags, traction control (LOOK at my tone ring! 😳😆😂🤣🤯) I KNOW every millimeter of Li'l Red. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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